My hubby is in the field for a week.
I realized how much I missed him today… and how spoiled I am.
He picks up our daughter when he can in the afternoons, which is a great relief to me since I am so sick, and it’s a one hour drive round trip each time to get her.
He usually picks up food or goes grocery shopping, does the laundry, take out the garbage (I can’t because I’m so sensitive to smells now, and everything just smells so awful)… mostly, I just miss him being here. I feel kind of lonesome without him.
I mean, I hardly even talk to him when he’s around here because I’m just so sick and miserable that I’m popping like 4 different meds that they gave me, so most of the time I’m sleeping… It’s going to be a long pregnancy, about 7 more months to go. I feel like death.
It was pouring this morning, how fitting. Before he left for the field, he said to me, I love you babe, don’t die while I’m gone.
I’m on a B6 and Unisom combo to help with nausea and vomiting… it makes me drowsy and sweaty in my sleep, and then it feels like I’m retaining my pee or something. I was also given this heavy-duty suppository (you’re literally supposed to stick it up your ass for it to work), but I haven’t used it yet because it’s very strong stuff, and there are risks to the baby (they sometimes give it as a sedative for surgery, so you know it’s heavy stuff)… I’m saving it for when I absolutely can’t deal with the pregnancy sickness, right now the B6 and Unisom are helping.
The doctor also gave me a referral to see an at-risk pregnancy ob/gyn, which are called perinatologist. I lost 3 pounds in one week since the last time he saw me, and I just have all sorts of miseries going on… plus, as I’ve already stated, they’ve got me on like 4 different meds so I won’t be hospitalized for dying. (I actually wouldn’t mind being hooked to an IV for some fluids and nutrients, I feel very blah at the moment.)
I’m at the end of month two: I’m basically bed-ridden. Everything smells awful. I have pains that I think are my kidneys, and usually my right kidney. I have to pee all the time. I feel very thirsty and dehydrated all the time. I’ve also got a terrible cause of pregnancy acne — I think the baby is a boy because I never had any pregnancy acne with my daughter, and also because I didn’t really get sick with my daughter either (although I did get light-headed and pass out occasionally). My hair also feels very flat and stringy… this pregnancy is very similar to my pregnancy with my son.
I was very sick with my son, but he was a super easy birth, and the next day it was as if I was never even pregnant at all. I literally woke up the next morning with my face cleared, energetic, great hair, and feeling fine. So that’s why I think it’s a boy… (old wives tales and such, you know).
I’m not comfortable sleeping on my back, so I’ve been sleeping on my left side with a pillow between my legs. My teeth and tongue also have this constant gritty feeling to it… I’m not sure if it’s from all that puking up or what. I also have a constant cough that produces nothing, and seems as if I’m congested. It could just be this awful Georgia air… but I can’t be certain — I’m always blowing my nose, it seems.
I’m also super gassy… and most of the time constipated, but sometimes diarrhea too (like today, when I had some nasty tea that I got at a gas station). I can’t tell if it was something I ate/drank, or the meds, or a combination of both.
I can hold down a bagel with cream cheese… which I have to go a mile out of my way to the nearest Dunkin Donuts to get. I’ve also had a few weird, trippy dreams… one which involved a bright green lizard.
I still say, I’m dying!!!, every day — just in case anyone forgets that I’m dying (but also because I like to remind my husband that he’s the reason I’m dying and to guilt him into doing everything while I try to sleep the remaining months away).